Dear Baby…..
Dear Baby
It has been five years since that fateful day I had to let you go. Please understand, I just couldn’t bear to see your suffering so.
Sometimes, I wondered if I gave up on you too soon. What if I had fought harder to get the doctors to do more for you, what if I had prayed harder that Jesus will spare you, what if I hadn’t taken you to the park that day, what if, what if, what if…..
I still remember when we went to visit you that evening, you looked at us as if we had abandoned you. You seemed to have slept already, so we went home. I was torn, I really wanted to be with you. I wanted to be the first thing you see when you woke up, just like you have been the most beautiful sight I see when I wake up those 6 wonderful years you were with me.
Now I can only console myself that this is all for the best. You have not been happy since we moved. It must be so lonely for you being cooped up in that apartment all day while we work. And only getting an hour or two each day to be outside. What an adjustment it must be for you.
You were so happy and alive, running around and exploring the park to your heart’s content without the leash. I only wanted to give you more time to be outside the apartment that day. I never expected that it would be your last day.
It’s OK. You’re with Jesus now, and I pray everyday that He is taking good care of you. They tell me that only people have souls. I don’t believe that. You are the most wonderful creation on God’s earth. You were capable of giving so much love and happiness and you gave selflessly. How can a being that is capable of giving so much love and happiness just die and disappear to nothing?
If it is true, then Baby, I’m willing to forego heaven just so that I can spend an eternity with you, wherever that is.
Don’t worry about your portrait. I know I have been working on it for years now, but I want to make sure that it turns out as perfect as you are.
As for your side of the bed, it’s always open for you if you want to come by for a visit.
I’ll always love you, Baby, even if I do adopt another pet some time in the future. You’ll always have my heart.
